A New Day Of A New Life

It's been a while since i left blogging. Gosh, how fast time flies! I still remember every single fragment of moments when i used to so into blogging. The feelings, thoughts that i poured into my old blog, unfortunately had gone. I deliberately deleted it to wash away old memories - happy or sad, but mostly hatred and unsatisfaction.

I couldn't think of any ways to express my feelings, my thoughts sincerely. So many things happened recently, i just don't know how or where to lay everything out. Friends?Yeah, maybe a good idea but hmm, no. It's hard you see to actually find someone who is just as faithful and loyal as this blog. This blog listens to me whenever i feel like talking to someone. If it's alive, i'm sure he can be such a loyal friend.

Just a few more hours to Hari Raya - a day which i have always waited for every year. But i don't know why, there's a part of me that feels different and sad. Perhaps, I've just lost that someone i truly love few days ago, which i will regret in my whole life because she never get the chance to know how my true feelings are. I am just too coward to show how i feel because i'm scared how other people might think. Why do i want to care about what others might think?It's my life, i should live it on my own and no one will have to interfere in my decision. I believe there's a reason to everything that had happened. Perhaps, miracle in disguise. Yeah, it surely is.

Though it's hard for me to accept the fact that she's not here anymore, i still have to go on with life. If she's here, she wouldn't want to see me or any of her friends mourning or crying for her. I have a long journey to go from here. I'm sure she will always be with me through good and bad times. I'm gonna cherish every little memory of you and me i swear. I don't know how to say this but i want to apologize to you for every single thing that i did that makes you cry or at least makes you feel down and unappreciated. I didn't mean all of these to happen. I guess sorry seems to be the hardest word. Your presence had given me something precious to my life which i will never ever forget. Your favourite song, food, smile, laughter, jokes, every single detail of you will always be remembered. May you rest in peace. Al-Fatihah. I hope you could read these.

To all people who's reading this, appreciate everything what you have now. Tell that someone you love how much you appreciate them, let them know because you will never know if tomorrow ever comes to you. Life is too short to be wasted. Live life as though you're gonna die tomorrow. Fill every second of your days with beauty and happiness. What's the use of living life with hatred to others?It will only destroy you yourself in the end. Take it from someone who knows. I hope tomorrow is going to be a new day for everyone, a day with hope and better future.

Till then, I want to wish Muslims around the world, especially Malaysian, Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Take care!