Hurt

This song which i'm listening to right now, over and over again, sort of touches my deepest heart. Hurt by Christina Aguilera really brings out the song in a way i couldn't describe. Words alone can't describe it. The way she breathes every word is so melodic and endearing. I wish i could sing just as good as she is. At some point, most of her songs sort of suits me really well. Though i definitely couldn't sing exactly like her, but rhyming her song brings the comfortable feeling to my voice. It just feel so right. I don't know what's that supposed to meab anyway. Apart from this particular song, her previous hit, Beautiful, was a good one too. Everytime i listens to the song, it brings me back to whenever year or moment when the song was a hit. It makes me remember or i can say, took me a glimpse through whatever that had happened during that time. I admit there are many sweet and bitter memories which i know i should just let it go, which i will.

Let it go. Just three simple word. But to do it just the way the word describe it may turn out to be the opposite. So simple, yet so complicated. I don't know what did i do to deserve what i get today. The mistake, the same mistake, keep on repeating over and over again. When the first time happened, i should have learnt from it. Instead, I did it again. To turn back the time is impossible. To forget and leave the mistake behind is barely possible. Though everything now seems okay to everyone, deep down in my heart, there's a part of me which i couldn't let go. I still want to but it seems possible. Knowing the fact that i might have screwed it before, i might not stand any chance. I want to forget but i just couldn't. Everytime i thought i moved on, then they came back again. I can't pretend forever. I must find a way to deal with this.

It seems now i don't know where or who should i turn to whenever i want to. I guess this blog is my best companion. Though you can only listen, i still appreciate that. I wish you could speak so that you will give me good advise. I can't think of anyone who i can really really trust right now. Though there's a few, i'm not sure whether they are willing to hear to all my whining. Will they understand me and accept me?I guess we'll never know. I hope when the time comes, there will be someone to hope.