February, here you are!

Just a few moments ago, i try to sleep but my eyes doesn't seem to be tired. Only my head is tired after spending the entire day on Thermodynamics Chapter 1. Well, not exactly the whole day,considering i woke up at 11 a.m and went to lunch and did other stuff, it was only at 3 i tried to open the book and revise. But can you believe how slow my pace is?Chapter 1 for goodness sake. What took me so long i wonder? I was kinda feeling regret because i just threw my weekends doing useless stuff. If I had known there was going to be a lot of work to be done, well, i knew about it actually, alright, let me rephrase, If I had realised how important time is, I would have spent it doing what need to be done first, then continue with my useless actvities. Well, people always say, "Nasi sudah jadi bubur". No use of regretting, i know. But I just wanna write something here, okay.

Wow, the clock has just strucked 2 a.m. It kinda spooked me off you know, because my notebook has this speaking clock, which will mention the exact time every hour with a big ben sound. It's kinda cool at first, but when it suddenly pops out with a sound, in the middle of a quiet,cold night, it sounds spooky to me. I was just finished printing my lecture material of IMSE for tomorrow - Chapter 4. I thought of looking through Chapter 3 tonight as I need to make the summary and hand it over tomorrow. But like i said, my head is jammed. I guess i need to postpone it until tomorrow, which i know will be more difficult since there will be more tonnes of work waiting. Well, that's life i guess. Who say's studying is easy? I don't think so. It takes great guts to put up myself with studies.

I've just realized that engineering is not something i enjoy the most. Well, i sort of knew about it earlier before, but hey, there's nothing i can do. This field offers me scholarship, and great job opportunity. What is there to reject? I guess follow your dreams isn't always the best thing to do. I need to consider the circumstances around me. I can't afford to pay myself for any education i like. I would have to wait for scholarships. And whichever offers scholarship, that's the place i'll be going. Sometimes, you can't always chase your dreams. You just have to do what is best for you, though it means you have to sacrifice what you enjoy the most and doing things that you don't really favour. That's about life i guess. Life is simple, it's just not easy. What i need to do now is make the best of what i have now, hoping that someday i would have the chance to fulfill my own dreams.