It feels so strange but it's alright

"It feels so strange but it's alright". One phrase from Teddy Geiger's song, Possibilities. I was sms-ing with my sis earlier tonight. I heard my dad is having cough at the moment. Kinda worried, but hope he gets well soon. I just remembered, it's been days since i last called home. I really miss home now. Even my mum was wondering why i didn't call for so long, according to my sis. Miss how i spent my days doing nothing at home, worrying nothing at all, watching tv series with my mum, staying late at night with my sis watching late night movies and karaoke-ing. Boring you may say, but you'll not feel how i felt until you feel it yourself. When things suddenly change thoroughly, there's a part in me that still wants to be unchanged, but somehow, the other part pulls everything back to reality. Next week, I shall go to KL and stay a few days with my bro. Guess that will ease a little bit of my homesickness. And in about a month, I'll be home for a week, my mid sem break.

There are certain things in life that i wish i could lend my hand. However, right now, what i can do is just to look from afar and do nothing. I wish there is something i could do to lighten things up, really. Just looking and knowing the fact that i can do nothing to help, really breaks my heart. What i need to do now is trying my best not to interfere and make things worse. But i know, someday, somewhere, i will definitely be able to do what i must do. It's been really long since I saw huge, honest smiles and laughter.