Welding day

It's been weeks now, since i last update this. SOOO much had happened, to list them all here, i think not. Let me just highlight a few. Last Chinese New Year holidays, i went to KL to visit my bro and also went to Genting Highlands with my bro and some friends. Quite exciting i guess. Tried a few games which i didn't during my previous trip. Kinda enjoyed this trip so much. But unfortunately, some of my friends which i would like them to be there, were not there. Maybe next time eh? My family was not also there. Kinda a sad thing for me too. I would really love to have both my family and friends together enjoying the time. Pretty greedy, aren't I?

Oh ya! Now, i certainly hate this someone SOOO much, it's as if i would like to say it straight to his face. In my entire life, i have never regret knowing anyone, but knowing this moron, i certainly am. Such a rude, bad mannered person who thinks he's always right and urgh!! Seriously, this was my biggest mistake to ever let myself befriend with such creature. I told a friend of mine that normally i would go easy on them after a while. But believe me, not this time. I was just trying to be nice, to be fun and i thought i was doing him a favour. Yet, no one appreciates that. He even backfired me. Now i will be that someone who he always thought i was. I'm just trying to be nice. =P

Well, all of sudden, it seems to me that evil is clouding here. Hahaha. Guess i should stop. I'm nice if you're nice. Don't get me wrong. If we've been friends for a while, don't question on that, i am what i have always been. :)

By the way, what's welding has got to do with all of these?Today i have manufacturing technology lab from 11 to 3 pm. Very tiring i would say. I was doing a welding process, can you believe that? Before this, not a day goes by that i'm thinking that i'll be doing such things. Previously, i saw my dad and my uncle doing welding at home. I never thought i would be doing the same thing this time. I can't wait to tell my dad.

It feels so strange but it's alright

"It feels so strange but it's alright". One phrase from Teddy Geiger's song, Possibilities. I was sms-ing with my sis earlier tonight. I heard my dad is having cough at the moment. Kinda worried, but hope he gets well soon. I just remembered, it's been days since i last called home. I really miss home now. Even my mum was wondering why i didn't call for so long, according to my sis. Miss how i spent my days doing nothing at home, worrying nothing at all, watching tv series with my mum, staying late at night with my sis watching late night movies and karaoke-ing. Boring you may say, but you'll not feel how i felt until you feel it yourself. When things suddenly change thoroughly, there's a part in me that still wants to be unchanged, but somehow, the other part pulls everything back to reality. Next week, I shall go to KL and stay a few days with my bro. Guess that will ease a little bit of my homesickness. And in about a month, I'll be home for a week, my mid sem break.

There are certain things in life that i wish i could lend my hand. However, right now, what i can do is just to look from afar and do nothing. I wish there is something i could do to lighten things up, really. Just looking and knowing the fact that i can do nothing to help, really breaks my heart. What i need to do now is trying my best not to interfere and make things worse. But i know, someday, somewhere, i will definitely be able to do what i must do. It's been really long since I saw huge, honest smiles and laughter.

What a night!

Before perusing my schedule, I actually thought my night would be my usual night where i spent it watching movies while chatting about anything with friends. But, it turned out to be the opposite. There were too much work to be done. To make matter worse, everything is due tomorrow. Manufacturing Technology, Vector Calculus, oh man. I can hardly master these subjects. However, I finished a thing or two, but not completely, still blanks here and there. Though i was busy, at least, something useful is going on. Not a day goes by since i came back that i make full use of the night doing homeworks. Luckily tonight is the night.

Earlier, went out with Tasha and the gang. The majority was girls of course, only 3 males around. It was just alright. It's been far too long since i hang out with them.

Hey, "I'm with you" is on air now. Gosh, this song brings me to a moment where too many things, sad and happy, happened. Full of memories. I wish i could just turn back the time and fix whatever that went wrong at that moment. If i could, definitely today would be different. But hey, i've moved on now, yeah, that's for sure. No more regretting, No more looking back. It has already happened, nothing can be done now. It was so yesterday. I need to think about today and also tomorrow. That's more important.

Well, i think i need to end tonight. My eyes won't be able to hold on anymore.

February, here you are!

Just a few moments ago, i try to sleep but my eyes doesn't seem to be tired. Only my head is tired after spending the entire day on Thermodynamics Chapter 1. Well, not exactly the whole day,considering i woke up at 11 a.m and went to lunch and did other stuff, it was only at 3 i tried to open the book and revise. But can you believe how slow my pace is?Chapter 1 for goodness sake. What took me so long i wonder? I was kinda feeling regret because i just threw my weekends doing useless stuff. If I had known there was going to be a lot of work to be done, well, i knew about it actually, alright, let me rephrase, If I had realised how important time is, I would have spent it doing what need to be done first, then continue with my useless actvities. Well, people always say, "Nasi sudah jadi bubur". No use of regretting, i know. But I just wanna write something here, okay.

Wow, the clock has just strucked 2 a.m. It kinda spooked me off you know, because my notebook has this speaking clock, which will mention the exact time every hour with a big ben sound. It's kinda cool at first, but when it suddenly pops out with a sound, in the middle of a quiet,cold night, it sounds spooky to me. I was just finished printing my lecture material of IMSE for tomorrow - Chapter 4. I thought of looking through Chapter 3 tonight as I need to make the summary and hand it over tomorrow. But like i said, my head is jammed. I guess i need to postpone it until tomorrow, which i know will be more difficult since there will be more tonnes of work waiting. Well, that's life i guess. Who say's studying is easy? I don't think so. It takes great guts to put up myself with studies.

I've just realized that engineering is not something i enjoy the most. Well, i sort of knew about it earlier before, but hey, there's nothing i can do. This field offers me scholarship, and great job opportunity. What is there to reject? I guess follow your dreams isn't always the best thing to do. I need to consider the circumstances around me. I can't afford to pay myself for any education i like. I would have to wait for scholarships. And whichever offers scholarship, that's the place i'll be going. Sometimes, you can't always chase your dreams. You just have to do what is best for you, though it means you have to sacrifice what you enjoy the most and doing things that you don't really favour. That's about life i guess. Life is simple, it's just not easy. What i need to do now is make the best of what i have now, hoping that someday i would have the chance to fulfill my own dreams.