Honesty is the best policy?You think so?

I always thought that to survive in any relationship, be it friendship or love, is to be honest with them. So, i tried to be as honest as i could to my friends. Whenever i was unhappy with them, i showed to them by action and gradually would tell them face to face how unhappy i was to them. Whenever i got angry to them, i refused to see them, put a long disgusted face whenever i bump into them. All because i thought that honesty is the best policy, that it's alright to show your real feelings to them so that they know how we felt towards them. But i was certainly wrong.

I never thought that my honest feelings and words which i intended to let them know would paralyze the relationship or even worse kill it. When i told them how i really feel towards them when i was angry, i didn't mean to make them look so bad. It's normal, isn't it? That when you are angry to someone, you would think negatively about them. About how disgusted they are to you, how reluctant you want to see them, how annoyed you feel of every action they make. I know that it wasn't on them completely. I know that we are not perfect, and that may also be my mistakes. But what makes me disappointed is that my honesty is mistaken as something they would remember as how rude and cruel i was to them in my words and actions.

After all, honesty is not the best policy. I'll make sure that i will never be totally honest in a relationship. It will only destroy you in the end.

Home sweet home

yes...i'm finally home, after a long, tiring, struggling exam week. I don't have any particular stuff to do here. I just wanna feel how comfortable and safe a home is. No worries. No homesick. I miss my family a lot. Now, that i get the chance to be here with them, i'm so glad and grateful. I will not exchange anything for this. Sometimes we tend to take people around us for granted. But believe me, you wouldn't wanna do that to anyone. You'll never know when you're gonna lose them. Take this from someone who knows. Take this chance of your life to appreciate everything what you have. Tell the person you love, be it your family or friends, how grateful you are to them for being there for you.

Although it's hard sometimes to think positively, especially when you're in the midst of a quarrell, be it with a close friend or your parents, but try your best to think the good things about them, don't look at the bad side. That will teach you how to let go and forgive them. I've been in situations where friends might leave you behind for some kind of reasons. And when they do that, the first thing that pops up out of my mind is that how ungrateful they were after all good things i did for them. I don't have a choice to think such a way. It took me weeks to let go the evil thoughts which somehow was too late for certain reasons. Nothing will ever be the same again. So, just wanna say that whenever you are not satisfied with your friend, don't push it, let it go instead. Try to think that that was just nothing. You will be fine hopefully.