Back here again

Well, actually it's been like how many days, 3 days? Yeah, it's been 3 days since i got back here in campus again. For the past two days, internet connection in my campus was temporarily down which makes it difficult to blog, in fact everything else - email, IM, etc. Back here again brings me to a feeling of anxiety and even panicky. I tell you why, i have few tests this week which i'm not sure i'm ready to sit for them, secondly, final exam is just around the corner, in fact it will be in less than a fortnight, not to mention i still have 1 big project to work on which is due next week and also additional assignments from lousy lecturers - did i just say lousy?no, i meant inconsiderate. We have tonnes of other tests alright, plus all other homeworks and revision, why can't they just at least give it a thought, can they?

Today i had the second test of this week, which personally i think i totally screwed it up. Not that i didn't make a point to revise, i did that's for sure. I guess it was a thing that you called last-minute revision, it's either you manage to cover everything up overnight or you completely mess it up. I guess in my case, it would be the latter. Yesterday's test was fine i guess, but knowing the fact that my coursework mark is way far from getting A due to my 2 quizzes, you know how it feels. I will get A if everything else is perfect, which i think is impossible. I'm not sure whether i'm the only one, but seriously i think this semester flies really fast, don't you think so? In a blink of an eye, it's already in the last week of lectures and then exam week. But there's one thing that turns me on - year-end holiday! Man, it will be 2 months.

Right now i'm listening to this one song - Pencinta Wanita by Irwansyah. I don't know why but it seems that this song has its charm that keeps on playing in my mind since the first time i heard of it. Pretty weird huh? But personally i think this song is very catchy and everything about it is just nice. Maybe that's why. I recommend you to find and listen to this song for once, i will assure it will be worthy. Guess i have to stop here. Like i said, tonnes of works waiting for me. Goodnight!

Unforgettable Raya

Gosh, it's so hard to consistently update my blog after neglected blogging for such a while. I'm trying hard to find that right moment to blog because you know, it took me a million miles to switch on the notebook, then connect to the internet and open the blog. Guess what?This will surely be my second post and my previous one was like 5 days ago. I happened to forget, not just my password, but also my username. So, i was wondering, how can i log on to this blog when i knew nothing about the account which i just created this week. Well, it took me sometime to figure it out. Luckily, it just popped out of my mind after cracking my head for a while. When u know the username, everything comes in handy. Fuh!

Oh well, i never thought this year's raya will be one of the unforgettable ones. Seriously, not a clue i had in mind that this year was going to be a blast after all that had happened to me this couple of months. Perhaps miracle in disguise. I thought after Hafizah left us forever, i wasn't going to enjoy raya as much as i did previously. Well, it turned out the other way round. She had left us something that is very precious - a lesson that i and all my friends will treasure. We all had realized, i know i did, that how much friendship means to everyone, how short life is. I personally feel that i'm beginning to appreciate friends and family really well. We'll never know what's there for us tomorrow or maybe 1 minute later. All i know is that i will appreciate the time that i have now so that i won't regret losing it later. To all my friends, i love u guys so much! To my family, i love you even more. I can't think of how my life would be without you lot.

I had a blast going out for visiting with my friends today and yesterday. 2 days in a row! I guess i went to like more than 10 houses. We had so much fun, laughter, jokes - luckily no fighting or any unwanted agenda. We took pictures together in every house we went. I have not uploaded the pictures yet, but i will later. What i can say now is that, this year is unforgettable!

Well, it's getting late and i know i have to stop because my eyes are just dying to rest. I will update more frequent - i hope =P Once again, Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin!

A New Day Of A New Life

It's been a while since i left blogging. Gosh, how fast time flies! I still remember every single fragment of moments when i used to so into blogging. The feelings, thoughts that i poured into my old blog, unfortunately had gone. I deliberately deleted it to wash away old memories - happy or sad, but mostly hatred and unsatisfaction.

I couldn't think of any ways to express my feelings, my thoughts sincerely. So many things happened recently, i just don't know how or where to lay everything out. Friends?Yeah, maybe a good idea but hmm, no. It's hard you see to actually find someone who is just as faithful and loyal as this blog. This blog listens to me whenever i feel like talking to someone. If it's alive, i'm sure he can be such a loyal friend.

Just a few more hours to Hari Raya - a day which i have always waited for every year. But i don't know why, there's a part of me that feels different and sad. Perhaps, I've just lost that someone i truly love few days ago, which i will regret in my whole life because she never get the chance to know how my true feelings are. I am just too coward to show how i feel because i'm scared how other people might think. Why do i want to care about what others might think?It's my life, i should live it on my own and no one will have to interfere in my decision. I believe there's a reason to everything that had happened. Perhaps, miracle in disguise. Yeah, it surely is.

Though it's hard for me to accept the fact that she's not here anymore, i still have to go on with life. If she's here, she wouldn't want to see me or any of her friends mourning or crying for her. I have a long journey to go from here. I'm sure she will always be with me through good and bad times. I'm gonna cherish every little memory of you and me i swear. I don't know how to say this but i want to apologize to you for every single thing that i did that makes you cry or at least makes you feel down and unappreciated. I didn't mean all of these to happen. I guess sorry seems to be the hardest word. Your presence had given me something precious to my life which i will never ever forget. Your favourite song, food, smile, laughter, jokes, every single detail of you will always be remembered. May you rest in peace. Al-Fatihah. I hope you could read these.

To all people who's reading this, appreciate everything what you have now. Tell that someone you love how much you appreciate them, let them know because you will never know if tomorrow ever comes to you. Life is too short to be wasted. Live life as though you're gonna die tomorrow. Fill every second of your days with beauty and happiness. What's the use of living life with hatred to others?It will only destroy you yourself in the end. Take it from someone who knows. I hope tomorrow is going to be a new day for everyone, a day with hope and better future.

Till then, I want to wish Muslims around the world, especially Malaysian, Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Take care!